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Sunday, February 28, 2010

Who I Am

I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad?
I want to break all the madness
But it's all I have
I want someone to love me
For who I am

Nothing makes sense, nothing makes sense anymore
Nothing is right, nothing is right when your gone.

I'm losing my breath, I'm losing my right to be wrong
I'm frightened to death, I'm frightened that I won't be strong

I'm shaking it off, I'm shaking off all of the pain.
Breaking my heart, breaking my heart once again

(Are you
Gonna love me, Yeah)
(For who I am)


Yeah, who I am.

By Nick Jonas & The Administration

Saturday, February 27, 2010

MEMANG

Tadi apa yang aku rasa sesak, buntu telah aku luahkan pada JIJI.

Dia cakap aku banyak makan hati. MEMANG.

Dia cakap lagi aku banyak menjaga hati. MEMANG.

JIJI rasa pelik sebab hari ni saja, aku dah post 7 entries. MEMANG.

Aku bilang, kalau sehari aku banyak merepek, ada lah yang tak kena. MEMANG.

Kesian JIJI sebab kalau aku buntu pasal hal ini aku cari dia. Haih. Sorry.

Thank you JIJI because always lending me your ears, and your eyes to see my blog. <3

Aku ceritakan pada JIJI sebab dia saja yang tahu segalanya dari mula sampai sekarang.

Stop It

Ianya tidak mudah. Susah nak luahkan bagaimana. Banyak benda yang bermain di fikiran.

Tiba-tiba rasa my privacy life dah tak ada. Kenapa? Tak tahu. Tak ada jawapan.

Bila join FB ingatkan boleh control and maintain my privacy life. But I FAILED. FAILED. *crying*

Tak tahu apa puncanya. Please respect my privacy life. I dont ask more. I just asking that. Is't too hard to fullfil it?

Bila hati ini rasa sesak, rasa buntu, tak tahu nak luahkan pada siapa, blog ini akan jadi mangsa.

I dont know how to tell it to people. I'd rather keep it on my own. Because all this time, I can managed things by myself.

Bila sudah terbiasa pendam apa-apa sahaja, jadi rasa untuk meluahkan apa yang terbuku, apa yang menyesakkan itu sudah hilang.

Tiba-tiba jadi lupa bagaiman untuk berkongsi perasaan yang berbuku dengan orang lain.

Biasanya berkongsi perkara yang happy-happy sahaja. Perkara yang sedih-sedih I just keep it alone.

But this time, Im not sure I can handle it or not.

Ada blog pun rasa macam dah tak selamat. Like I told you much before, blog ni tiada siapa tahu. Unless Jiji.

But now, I feel like there are stalkers in my blog.

Probably I know the stalker/s.

Please I want my privacy life. If you want to know every single thing, just ask me.

Im willing to answer it. It easy and simple right?

Dont make things complicated.

* 3 kali dengar lagu When I Look At You - Miley Cyrus masa post ini ditype. * Buntu *

Macam Kena Saja :)

Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.

* So should I keep going? *

Give Me Back My Privacy

Waaaaaaaaaa tersentap jantung Zafi tadi. Tersentap. Terkedu. Tergaman.

Dah berapa hari entah tak pergi tengok page dia. Baru kejap tadi pergi tengok page dia, and I've found out that mutual friends between us are 17. Aikkk pelik ni. Before ni 16 je. Siapa pula kawan dalam FB Zafi yang dia baru add. Bila Zafi check, what???? That girl? Haih.

Aduhhhhh gugur rasa jantung ni. Sebelum ni abang dia je yang add that girl. Zafi tak kisah lah. Tapi ni dia. And Zafi pernah juga berkira-kira nak jadi follower that girl. Boleh share cerita. Tapi since that girl publishkan alamat blognya, jadi tak jadi lah nak jadi follower. Sebab kalau 'dia' tengok blog that girl, and nampak Zafi jadi follower, mesti lah dia akan tengok blog Zafi juga kan?

Ishhhh tak boleh tak boleh. Day by day, I think my private life is gone. I have no privacy at all.

Ok now tell me what I should do? Pergi marah that girl? Pergi marah 'dia'? Girl tu mungkin tak tahu apa-apa. Kalau pergi marah 'dia', habis lah dia tahu Zafi tengok pagenya. Alah macam lah 'dia' tak pernah tengok page Zafi. I can feel it. Walaupun dia tak add kan boleh cari by name or mail add. Tak susah kan?

Geram punya pasal Zafi pun dah 'menghilangkan' privacy dalam FB Zafi. Before this, I kept all private. Only my friends can see it. But now, everyone can see my status, link, notes, photos that I've been tagged in, and all my posts either from me or from my friends.

Yang Zafi keep private hanya lah, basic infos and yang berkaitan, and all my photo albums. Nak sangat kan tengok page Zafi? Dari buat letih je tengok tapi semua private, baik Zafi bagi tengok wall, videos, and photos yang friends tagged in. Puas hati? *hhpppfffttt*

You Have 2 New Mails :D :)

Heheheehe sebelum tu bagi Zafi gelak dulu. Tadi Zafi dah send kat dia 2 mails. 1 tu ade pics random. Urmmm pics patung duit teddy bear, and kotak cereal Famous Amos. Entah apa-apa.

Then 1 mail lagi Zafi bagi apa yang Zafi tulis malam tadi. Ting tong betul. :P:P:P

Hahahaaha tak apalah. Whatever.

Mimpi

Tahu tak pagi tadi Zafi mimpi apa? Mesti tak tahu kan? Its strange. Really.

Agaknya sebab semalam asyik terfikir-fikir sama ada nak send message kat dia atau tak Zafi sampai terbawa-bawa dalam mimpi. Semalam kan Jumaat. My routine ingatkan dia potong kuku. Tapi semalam Zafi tak buat. Sebab jauh hati. Dia busy ke apa tak tahu lah. Tapi dah seminggu tak message. Jadi Zafi nekad tak nak message dia.

But after I came back from Open Day, my mind kept thinking about him. So I grabbed several color papers and started to write 'something'. Dah siap Zafi snap apa yang Zafi buat. Sebab nak bagi kat dia through email.

Bila tidur Zafi mimpi, masa tu ada lah family and relatives, then entah macam mana tiba-tiba, dia datang. Surprise. Zafi je yang tak tahu. Sebab family and relatives masa tu senyum-senyum je. Kami pun borak-borak. Best sangat. Hehehehe :D

Masa nak balik, dia drive Merc. Tiba-tiba Mercnya buat hal. After that, I cant remember what had happen. I Missed Him So Badly.... :(

From BTS to LY




Semalam temankan my housemate pergi KL. Dia nak beli handphone baru. So kami bertolak dari kolej jam 11AM. Itu pun bus tu sampai setengah jam. Penat menunggu. Then nak sampai ke KL pula lama betul. Dalam sejam setengah. Biasanya dalam sejam je dah sampai. Banyak buang masa kan? Tak pelah sebab kesian kat kawan tu.

Then dari Pudu kami naik LRT ke Hang Tuah. Sampai Hang Tuah jalan kaki ke Times Square. Agak jauh la juga. Then kena lintas jalan lagi. And kebetulan pula semalam cuti umum sebab sambutan Maulidur Rasul. 12 Rabiulawal tahun Gajah lahirlah zuriat yang syahadah. Hahahaha ada kan lagu macam tu? Lantaklah Zafi. :D

Then dalam BTS tu kat lobbynya ada decoration sempena CNY, wahhh rasa macam kat Hong Kong pula. Merah sana merah sini. Apa lagi task paling utama, SNAP PICS!!! Hahaha pantang jumpa tempat cantik mesti nak snap. Alah kenangankan. Apa salahnya. Bila tengok jam almost 1PM. Oh kami kena rush pergi Low Yatt. Nanti ambil masa lagi nak pilih HP.

Then dari BTS kami jalan kakai ke LY. Ina ambil duit and then, Zafi suruh dia teman Zafi nak pergi solat. Sebab nanti senang tak payah tangguh-tangguh. After solat, kami pun memulakan ekspedisi (beg berat ni. Ekspedisikan. :P), survey HP. Ina cakap dia nak model SE Cyber-Shot. Jadi kerja akan senang lah sebab dah tau nak model apa kan. Bila dah puas survey, entah dalam berapa kedai, finally jumpalah the latest model. Tapi pelik lah sebab kat sini USB jual asing-asing. Masa Zafi beli dekat Kuantan Parade semua set ada. Complete.

Zafi cakap nasib baik dah beli awal-awal. Lagipun Zafi pergi dengan family. And as always, Daddy akan tolong pilih sekali. Baru puas hati. Biasanya kalau Zafi ok, dia ok and macam tu lah sebaliknya. Sependapat. Eceh. Kami keluar dari LY jam 3PM. Penat sangat-sangat ok. And kami masuk semula BTS. Hehehe nak tau buat apa? Sambung snap lagi lah. :D

Lepas tu nampak kedai kasut. Cantik kasut tu. RM10 je. Zafi pun trylah. Tapi besar lah pula. Then tanya pekerja tu size 37 ada tak? Dia cakap dah tak ada. Alahhhhh time nak beli mesti dah habis. Sebenarnya sebelum pergi LY Zafi dah masuk dulu kedai kasut tu, and berkenan kasut color hitam. Tapi biar dulu sebab malas nak bawa masuk LY. Berat sangat lah konon. Last-last, ambil kau, dah tak ada kasut tu. Haih.

Masa nak jalan kaki semula ke station LRT, kaki rasa dah tak larat. Macam jauuuuh betul berbanding datang. Sampai Pudu dalam 4 lebih, lebih kurang 445PM bus yang kami naik bertolak nak balik semula ke Tanjong Malim. Oh ya kami langsung tak makan pun. Sebab nak balik cepat. Tak larat and tak sabar nak sampai rumah. Katil dah terbayang-bayang kat kepala masa tu.

Sampai di rumah tepat jam 6PM. Tapi malamnya housemates ajak pergi Open Day KAB pula. Ya Allah aku punya letih lagi mahu ajak pergi situ. Nak tak nak, lepas Isyak, pergi lah Open Day. Tak jauh pun. Bawah rumah je. Ha part paling best, masuk rumah hantu. Housemates beria-ia ajak masuk, Zafi cakap tak nak lah. Nanti silap-silap Zafi ketawakan hantu tu je. Hahahaha. Cakap besar. Tapi dia orang paksa juga. Zafi pun masuk lah. Ambil kau, sekali masuk terus Zafi tutup mata. Zafi pegang kawan. Dia jalan depan. Yang Zafi nampak ada mayat and ala-ala Suster Ngesot tu. Yang lain dah tak tahu. Tutup mata kan. Keluar dari rumah hantu, dada rasa nak pecah. Menjerit. Balik rumah terus mandi, sebab takut mengigau. Kelakar kelakar.

Oh, semalam juga family Zafi balik KL. Balik lagi. Tapi Zafi tak balik sebab tadi ada class. Jadi yang baliknya berempat je lah. My parents and 2 sisters.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

I Love You Till Death



What? Lagi 3 hari nak masuk bulan baru? Bulan apakah itu? Bulan purnama kah? Atau kuih bulan? Oh semestinya tidak. Bulan yang dimaksudkan adalah Bulan March. Maknanya dah suku tahun untuk tahun 2010. Time is flying so fast.

And thing to mention is, my birthday is on March. Im turning 22. Bila fikir-fikir balik macam tak percaya pula Zafi bakal berusia 22. Ohhhhh Im leaving my teenage's life. 22 years old is not a long period. Trust me. Its so short. Lepas tu bakal menginjak ke usia 25 and seterusnya dah 30 tahun. Bila dah 30 tahun tu pada Zafi dah tak de masa nak suka-suka. Have to focus on career, family (MOST IMPORTANT), and not wasting time with such light things.

Kenapa Zafi tiba-tiba cakap pasal umur 30 tahun? Sedangkan baru nak masuk 22? Entah la. I dont have any specific answer or reason. Its just comes into my mind. Bila fikir pada usia 22 ni apa yang Zafi dah buat pada family. Nothing. Zafi belum balas apa-apa pun lagi pada family. They had sacrificed a lot for me. But me? *Sigh*

To my Mommy and Daddy : I LOVE YOU TILL DEATH. THANK YOU SO-REALLY- DAMN MUCH FOR ALL YOUR SACRIFICES. BOTH YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND MY PRAYERS. ALLAH, I CANT IMAGINE HOWS MY LIFE GOING TO BE IF YOU TAKE THEM BEFORE ME...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A Sweet True Love Story

From the very beginning, girl's family objected strongly on her seeing this guy, saying that it has got to do with family background, and that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarreled very often. Though the girl loved the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the girl to be very upset. With that and the family's pressure, the girl often vents her anger on him. As for him, he only endured it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated and decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, and with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in and agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They use to exchange their love through emails and phone calls. Though it was hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum cry, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She had lost her voice...

The doctor says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice.

Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silent cry, it's still just silent cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same, except for the ringing tone of the phone which pierced into her heart every time it rang.

She does not wish to let the guy know and not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions and millions of reply and countless phone calls. All the girl could do besides crying is still crying... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything and be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learnt sign language and started a new life.

Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came and told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed and her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she opened the letter, she saw her name on it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what was going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her...

He used sign language to tell her, "I've spent a year to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled...

Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to Give.

Treat every moment as if it's the last day, then you'll know how to Treasure.

Treasure what you have right now, or else may regret one day...

*credit to islamicoccasions.com*

Mad

When Im mad, I do not talk with people. I try avoid myself from my surrounding. Because, once my words spread out of my mouth, there you go, somebody or maybe even everybody is going to get hurt. Truth hurts right? *Im done.*

Monday, February 22, 2010

The Proposal







Salam semua..Its been for ages since I dont post entries right? Cuti CNY la..So I went to Klang. Plan sampai 14 Feb je nak balik. Tapi tunda sampai 17 Feb. Seronok dapat duduk Klang lama. Dah lama tak cuti and habiskan masa kat situ lama-lama. Paling lama pun just 2 days je. My daddy panjangkan tempoh balik Klang sebab 14 Feb tu mak cik ada buat sikit kenduri kesyukuran. Hari jadi mak cik. Yup its on 14 Feb.

Majlis tu belah malam. After Isyak kami bertolak ke Raja Musa. Dalam sejam je. Sampai sana banyak betul kereta. Jadi kami kena parking kereta luar kawasan rumah la. Sampai-sampai terus pergi dapur. Sebab ruang tamu penuh sesak. Mak cik panggil ustaz dari mana entah and ada la juga anak-anak yatim. Lepas baca doa kesyukuran apa semua time untuk kami anak-beranak and saudara mara pula untuk celebrate. Ada cake. Eh no..cakes!!! Cup cakes pun ada. Sedap ouh!

Masa potong kek tu semua tetamu dah balik. Tinggal kaum kelurga kami je. Lepas tu yang mana saudara mara yang agak lama tak jumpa, bila bersembang lama lah kan. Then bila seorang mak cik Zafi nak balik, Mak Cik Jah namanya, ke rumah peranginannya kat Janda Baik (sebenarnya Mak Cik tinggal di Sri Andalas), dia salam lah dengan Zafi and mom. Lepas tu Zafi tengok dia macam peluk mom and berbisik. Tapi boleh dengar lagi tau dia bisik apa. Nak tau apa dia? Boleh lah kita berbesan!!! Mommy hanya senyum je. Tak mengiakan and tak pula menolak. Mungkin mommy tak nak buat keputusan terburu-buru. Ya Allah terkedu kejap Zafi kat situ. Dulu masa Zafi dalam form 2 dia pernah cakap macam tu. Tapi macam main-mainlah. Saja-saja je kot. Tapi yang ni Mak Cik Jah cakap lagi pasal hal tu. Mula-mula Zafi terfikir juga dalam 2-3 hari betul ke apa yang Mak Cik Jah cakap ni. Lepas tu Zafi just let it go and take it easy. Mungkin Mak Cik Jah saja je cakap-cakap macam tu.

Lagi pun Zafi fikir anaknya mesti dah ada special ones. Tak kan lah tak de. Berlambak kot kat tempat anaknya belajar kat UTHM tu. Semoga hati Zafi tetap pada 'saya sayang kamu' tu, and hati 'saya sayang kamu' tetap pada Zafi juga. Ameen Ya Rabbal Alameen.

* Pics ni masa kenduri kesyukuran hari ulang tahun mak cik. Then yang rumah tu pula tu lah rumah peranginan Mak Cik Jah kat Janda Baik.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Keep The Record On Play Peeps!!!




Semalam eh bukan hari ni kan tidur jam 4AM. Dalam bosan-bosan buat assignments sempat juga lah godek-godek youtube. Saja cari lagu-lagu yang latest. Lagu yang best. And the part was... I've found the latest single from OUTLANDISH!!! Auuuwww Isam Bachiri!!! I Like it!!! The title is Keep The Record On Play.

Needless to say, the song and the rythm arghhh so-so rocks! MV nya pun menarik and as always Isam Bachiri selalu pouthing his mouth. Hot!!! But he's married okkay. :( Melepas. Haishhh apsal petang-petang ni kenja sikit ni? (erkk sikit ke?) Cool Zafi, stick to the one ok. Zafi kenal group Outlandish ni pun through him. Mula-mula tak tahu pula yang Icam tu one of this group member. Sebab Zafi pernah tengok MV Isam feat Sami Yusuf. Masa tu dia suruh dengar lagu Calling You. Memang best la lagu-lagu dari Outlandish ni.

The interesting part is group ni bukan semuanya Muslim. Ada seorang yang beragama Christian. Tapi mereka boleh get along. And their songs pun kind of nasyid lah. But in modern version. Lepas tu ada campur-campur (bukan class Mari Memasak ya) music. Maksudnya not so typical like the old nasheed used to be. Sesuai dengan masa sekarang. Ni Zafi dah bagi sekali lyric lagu Keep The Record On Play. Enjoy peeps!!

Tetraga feya
Tebkey 3aleyya
Mish moumkin youm
Ha'dar asaamah.

[ISAM BACHIRI]
Keep The Record On Play yeah
No matter, no matter what they say yeah
I got the remedy for you
Everybody turn the radio up

[WAQAS]
Okay, okay haters here to front
They say, they say
See that boy he went from rags to raja
Fresh out the slum
Straight out the recordbooth to the streets, to the souk
I am. what I can't complain, so yeah I screwed up
No matter how, they would try to hold me down
But I hit back
I stopped being a slumdog long ago
Get those twentyfour inch rims on rickshaws
It ain't all out sourced so we hustle hard

[ISAM BACHIRI]
Ayo, Ayo - Keep The Record On Play yeah
If you had a hard day yeah
Don't let it get the best of you
Brush it off, turn the radio up
Keep The Record On Play yeah
No matter, no matter what they say yeah
I got the remedy for you
Everybody turn the radio up

[ISAM BACHIRI]
Hey it doesn't matter your situation
Cause it's time to celebrate
Let it all go, while the record play
It's okay, all I need is your cooporation
Scream it out on the count of three
Everybody one, two, three ayo ayo.

[LENNY]
oyee flaca eres ese disco que yo pongo ??? cualquier
ocasion
lunes martes temprano y por la tarde miercoles y jueves te
pongo en toda buena te pongo cuando llueve viernes pones el
ambiente a mi cena te oigo en ?????? te cojo por
antena el sabado eres ????? te escucho el domigo
todo el dia ????? descansar

[ISAM BACHIRI]
Ayo, Ayo - Keep The Record On Play yeah
If you had a hard day yeah
Don't let it get the best of you
Brush it off, turn the radio up
Keep The Record On Play yeah
No matter, no matter what they say yeah
I got the remedy for you
Clip Keep The Record On Play
Everybody turn the radio up

[LENNY]
ayo ayo y todos aquiayo ayo ay canten a si ayy ayo ay
griten a si ayo ayo ayo ayo

[ISAM BACHIRI ]
Ayo, Ayo - Keep The Record On Play yeah
If you had a hard day yeah
Don't let it get the best of you
Brush it off, turn the radio up
Keep The Record On Play yeah
No matter, no matter what they say yeah
I got the remedy for you
Everybody turn the radio up

Tetraga feya
Tebkey 3aleyya
Mish moumkin youm
Ha'dar asaamah [3x]

Meshtagaleek

I miss you, my spirit of my soul is longing for you
Swear by your eyes, that my soul melted
From a long time I miss to you
Oh the past, come back to the description of you
The reason is after you my love
the reason is after you my love
my love after you..my love
be tender to him, be tender to him
and accept him the way he is
the nights are long, the nights are long
Your love wrapped me around
The black eyes,
and the
the wind of my heart
Its thursty, its thursty
oh moon, oh moon
its awake, for the precious one
and your picture, your picture
is in my heart and mind
no matter what happens, I will never forget
your days, your days
And I wish that you come back to me
your love, your love

*lagu ni tiada kena mengena dengan Zafi. Sebab lagu ni macam suruh her love come back. Zafi punya ada je. :) *

Cepatlah Siap Assignments

Penat. Letih. Lesu. Minggu ni memang minggu yang loco. LOCO. Sebab kena submit 2 assignments satu hal then banyak lah lah yang berkaitan dengan benda alah tu. Semalam tidur jam 4AM. Bangun untuk solat then tidur semula sampai jam 845AM. Tak lama pun tidurnya. Total 4 jam je.

Semua kena settle sebelum balik cuti mid sem ni. Haih nak cuti nak cuti tapi kerja berlambak lagi nak kena buat ni. Aduhhh siapa boleh tolong? Tengok kalau perasan cara Zafi menulis pun macam tak bersemangat. Memang.

Jumaat ni balik after jam 5PM. Kena pergi class Politic dulu. Then tunggu family datang ambil. Hurrayyhh!!! (Buat-buat happy je ni. Tapi kusut sebab kerja banyak tak habis lagi). Ouh rasa macam seksa sangat ni. Tolong tolong tolong. Dah mula nak merepek la ni.

Lately jadi malas nak update blog. Sangat malas. Entah tak tahu kenapa. Tambah pula hari ni cuti. Jadi tengah bertungkus lumus (ayat macam perit je tu) nak siapkan semua ni. Oklah tak tahu nak merepek apa lagi. Boring kan baca. Tata.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Main Hujan

Semalam adalah hari yang sangat loco. Sebab pagi ada Family Day Blok C. Dengan panas yang teriknya lepas tu selepas Zohor rushing pergi kampus. Ada perbarisan untuk KEJORA pula. KEJORA stands for Kejohanan Olahraga. Memang penat yang amat sangat. Sebenarnya masa Family Day berlangsung, Zafi dah balik awal. Sebab nak rest kejap. Simpan tenaga dulu untuk perbarisan. Then lepas Zohor baru gerak. Tapi sebab tak makan lagi jadi pergi lah makan dulu. Minta makanan kat AJK Family Day lah. Dapat makanan free kan. Rugi bayar kalau tak makan.

After makan berkejar pula ke kampus. Sampai sana hujan!!!!!! Habis basah semua baju. Macam mana nak marching ni? Padang pula dah jadi macam sawah bendang dah ni. Tapi bila tengok semua orang dah basah pedulikan je lah. Masa marching depan stage yang Datuk VC ada rasa sangat bangga tau. Sebab nampak dari stage tu Datuk VC cakap basah. Masa tu tengok Datuk VC waves kat ahli-ahli marching dengan dua-dua tangannya. Excited.

Lepas tu Datuk VC sanggup turun dari stage dan berhujan dengan kami semua. Walaupun ramai escorts Datuk VC yang nak payungkan tapi beliau tak nak. Bila beliau datang je kat barisan kami terus buat 'give me ten' bukan 'give me five' ye. You peeps tell me VC Uni mana yang sanggup berhujan sampai basah habis satu badan walaupun ada escorters yang nak payungkan? Bangga dapat VC macam ni. Ni baru contoh yang terbaik. Beliau letakkan dirinya seperti kami walaupun jawatannya kedua tertinggi dalam Uni. If you respect people, people will respect you more.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Recipe

Ola!!! Terlalu banyak nak diluahkan malam ni. Tapi internet ni pula buat hal. Dari mood bahagia dan ceria sampai lah mood tak berapa nak baik. (Berapa banyak tak baik tu? Susah nak cakap.) Geram tau tak. Geram. *hffpptt*

Semalam message kira happy lah. I lah message dia dulu. For the very first time after 6 or 7 weeks, I sent a reminder message to him to make sure his nails short and clean. Yup thats my routine okkay. Lepas tu banyak lah yang kami borakkan. I mean dalam message la. Oh ya dari class Politics sampai habis class kami bermesej. Hahaha sangat nakal dan entah apa-apa. Sebab semalam ada presentation individu. Jadi bosan baik layan message. Oh my lect I feel so guilt towards you. Im so sorry. *Sob sob sob* Insaf sekejap je ni.

Masa message tu dia suruh panggil nama lain pula. Bila tanya kenapa, dia cakap ada sekali tu sensitive and merajuklah lepas tu terus melekat nama tu. Then I asked him, jadi nak manja-manjalah suruh panggil nama tu pula? He said nak nak!. KENJA! kan? Nevermind sekali sekala je.

Time tu juga dia tengah practise untuk perform pagi tadi. Nyanyi lagu Suratan Atau Kebetulan. Lagu old school tu. Pernah dengar tapi not so sure lah siapa penyanyinya. Kenny Rogers kot? Eh silap-silap. Kenny Remy Martin kan? Tak salah la. I cakap lah u got nice voice. Betul agak garau tapi kalau nyanyi lain lah jadi suaranya tu.

Suruh dia record tapi dia cakap nanti sebutan BM nya macam apa entah. Ala tak pe lah kan? Kalau dengar salah tu boleh baiki lagi sebutannya. Part paling best pasal recipe yang I bagi last year. Before his big 'mission'.

Dia cakap dah try recipe tu. But not him actually. His mama. Mamanya tanya lah aikk dari siapa pula? And he answered adalah. :) :D Bayangkan muka I masa tu!!! Aaaaa malu sangat. Walaupun dia tak nampak rasa macam tak cukup tempat nak menyorok. Dia tanya kenapa nak nervous pula? Yelah buatnya saya salah bagi recipe macam mana? Haishhh dah kena buka buku recipe. Tapi sebenarnya itu recipe sendiri lah. *Clap clap clap*

Oh I got to go. Benci betul lah. Ada je benda kacau. Nanti sambung lagi ya. Tata :)

*Semalam tak pergi pun tengok Semerah Cinta Stiletto. Sebab ada hal yang tak dapat dielakkan. Hate it*

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Malas

Tak tau lah petang ni nak merepek apa pula. Urmmm...tak berapa nak ada idea tapi tangan gatal-gatal (bukan allergic okkay) nak berblog. Minggu ni memang sibuk. Tapi still ada masa juga kan nak menulis? Haih...

Malam ni dengan ada meetingnya. Then esok ada class. And malamnya pula mau pergi tengok wayang! Cerita Semerah Cinta Stiletto. Saja je nak pergi tengok. Sebab since duduk sini tak pernah pun pergi tengok film. Oh ya bukan jauh pun panggung wayangnya. Dekat Panggung Budaya Uni ni juga.

Lepas tu Sabtu ada class juga. Two classes. Dua-dua tu class tarian. Aduh seronok memang seronok tapi kalau semua dah penat tak rasa juga keseronokan tu. Next week dah masuk week ke-7 untuk sem ni. Lagi best (kenapa mesti guna lagi best? Betul ke best?) ada dua assignments kena submit. *Sigh* Sabar Zafi. Be strong. And kalau sempat maybe my group kena buat presentation juga. Minta-mintalah tak sempat. Bahan untuk buat slide dah ada tapi MALAS. Oh semangat ku kemana kau pergi?

Ahad pula ada dua aktivitas. Ok jangan nak guna Bahasa Indonesia ye. Maksudnya aktiviti lah. Pagi ada Family Day untuk Blok C. Sampai tengah hari agaknya. Lepas tu dalam jam 4:00PM kena pergi kampus pula. Ada perbarisan untuk Sukan KEJORA. Ni buat semua semata-mata untuk kolej tau. Untuk Family Day Sabtu ni kena in-charge bahagian peralatan. Dah settle isi borang and bayar deposit apa semua. Tunggu nak pergi angkut barang-barang je.

But I couldn't make it. Ada meeting jam 8:30PM ni. Rasa macam malas pergi. Tapi kalau tak pergi orang lain cakap apa pula. Susah susah. Arghhh kenapa chaos sangat minggu ni? Bukan minggu ni je. But everyweek. Apalah kan pasal ni pun nak merepek. Life is always like this.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Guilty

Hurmmm pening-pening...Tiba-tiba jadi tak faham pula kalau orang berkias ni. Selalunya kalau orang cakap berkias cepat je aku faham. Kalau cakap terus-terang apatah lagi. Mestilah lagi faham dengan jelas.

Tapi semalam tiba-tiba je dia bagi message. Message tu membawa maksud yang dia sangat menghargai aku sebab hadir dalam hidupnya. Itu aku boleh terima. Tapi yang buat aku tertanya-tanya dia ada selitkan words ni 'One last thing'. Kalau orang lain pun dah keliru kan? 'One last thing'? Perkara terakhir? Kenapa selepas ni akan jadi yang terakhir ke? Nauzubillah aku tak nak ianya berakhir.

Then aku balas la kenapa tulis macam tu? Tapi dia balas lebih kurang macam ni. *He texted in English*. Kita tak tahu bila kita jadi rapat dan mesra. Dan kita juga tak tahu bila ia akan berakhir. (SUMPAH aku sangat tersentap dan keliru kenapa dia text macam tu.) Tapi bila kemesraan ini berakhir, aku tak kan melupakan mu yang pernah membuatkan aku tersenyum.

Jujur waktu tu aku rasa nak menangis. Aku buntu dan keliru apa maksudnya. Adakah petanda yang baik atau sebaliknya? Adakah dia tulis macam tu sebab ada kaitan dengan record 'Saya Sayang Kamu' yang dia sent through email tu. Aku cuba tanya dia kenapa dia tulis macam tu? Dia cakap cubalah try to figure out sendiri. Aku jawab when Im tired of figure out, I'll figure in. But still I can find the answer. Sebenarnya dalam hati aku tak pasti sama ada dia texted macam tu untuk penghargaan kepada aku atau apa?

Kemudian dia cakap lupakan saja. Masakan boleh lupakan saja apa yang dia tulis? Mestilah terselit rasa tak puas hati dan berbuku-buku sebab tak dapat penjelasannya. Oh apa patut aku buat ni? Lepas tu dia minta pendapat aku pada satu sentence ni. Agaknya berkaitan dengan course nya. Tapi masa tu pula aku ada meeting. Jadi aku cakap habis je meeting aku akan text dia. I did. Nak tau dia reply jam berapa? 2:47AM pagi tadi, dah masuk hari Rabu. Maybe kat sana dalam jam 6:47PM hari Selasa. Dia cakap dia baru balik dari kelas. And dia cakap sentence tu ada kaitan dengan quiz. Ya Allah agaknya dia tanya tu sebelum pergi quiz. Tapi aku manalah tahu dia ada quiz. Kalau tak masa meeting tu aku akan text je. Biarlah orang lain bercakap dalam meeting. Aku layan je lah message dia tu. *Guilty*.

Mungkin dia pun rasa bersalah agaknya sebab aku balas lambat. Sebab tu dia balas juga jam 2 tu. Walaupun dia tahu aku dah tidur. Tapi aku biarkan je message tu. Kalau balas pun kacau dia tidur pula. Tunggu dia bangun dulu lah. But 1 thing for sure I'll ask him why did he texted like that. I just want to make thing clear.